Debated whether or not to share this one... but I think it is pretty raw and real. I wrote it sometime in 2015, and then reworked it in May of 2016. Things were pretty moody for me then. Enjoy moody 19 year old Parker.
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"navy blood"
05.03.2016
I spend so many nights hating myself for my imperfections.
Hating the mistakes I have made,
hating the struggle,
the pain,
and the sin in my life.
And then I start to feel all that hate,
depression,
and confusion
spread through my blood.
I lie there in the dark and literally feel it circulate through my veins
navy and dangerous.
And I just want to scream.
But I won’t.
Because I have this irrational fear that if I do scream,
my skin will stretch and rip away,
and the nevy veins will be exposed to the air
and I won’t ever be able to feel warm again.
So instead I clench my muscles and unclench them
and clench them again.
Circulating this thick navy blood
and keeping myself alive.
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Ok deep breath. Thanks for reading. Lighter poetry coming at you tomorrow.
Keep peace and keep creating,
Paker<3
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